Nothing

Most of my teen and early adult life was devoted to that desperate search for glory. The glory of being able to prove to the world that I was in control. It I had control, I has happy.

But the more I tried to be in control, the more I become out of control. I discovered that the power to be in control was not really the best place in the world. So I gave up searching and surrendered to the Higher Power. It took a lot of humility on my part. It wasn’t easy accepting that I really had nothing and I was nothing.